A shot to get out
Lately, I found myself treating people with more happiness, kindness, and joyfulness; trying to socialize and make them comfortable which all happens against my custom in the last three years. I haven't decided internally to do so, which makes me feel that my brain just decided to give me another chance to feel happier with people as I have always been before. I am totally ok with that, yet it has side effects ruining my life. When I get home late, the whole anxiety hits me making me feel as if I am drunk, sending messages that I would have never sent, and doing stuff I would have never done in any other circumstances. The matter is that I make the action without thinking about it with apathy. The good thing in the morning leaves me with sadness and anxiety in the evening. What can I do more to handle things? What could I have done before? ..